New year clock

It’s still 2009 here on this hot weathered city.

What am I waiting for in 2010? And what are you waiting for?

Is there something special on 2010 besides your new year resolution? I’ve made my thought on new year resolution. And I’m still keep it secret until I’m able to reassure my self that I could achieve it. It’s simple, but I think it is the root of my overall life problem. And I suggest you do the same, don’t make new year resolution only based on what you wanting to have next. Money can be gained anytime, so does happiness. But how do you achieve it if you don’t fix the root cause of the problem to grab that achievement.

I prefer to make a new year resolution based on my current situation. How do I see my life, zoom in detailed and zoom out overall view. And there the problem lies, is this life bored, dry? But if I felt happy and fulfilled already, then new year resolution isn’t necessary unless you would want to keep that happiness and fulfilled life to grow.

Enough talking. My time in 2009 is almost up, so does you.
When you read this, it’s probably 2010 already. So cheer’s, happy new year 2010 for you my beloved readers.

One day, I met a new jar of sweet candy. I get along with it. I’m so in love and we stuck together all the time. I bring it wherever I go. I know I can live with only the sweet candy forever. I thought.

Not until I met with a jar of jelly. I have a strange tingling in my ear. It is a refreshing feeling. It seems funny, new, and so fresh. Finally I decided to cheat on the sweet candy for a while and go out with jelly. But I’m still craving for another taste of sweet candy, that’s why I had to cheat.

Now I decided, why have one when I can have both? So here I am. Yum! Sweet candy on my left hand, jelly on my left hand finger!

By the way, I doubt I could do something like this with girls.

Happy jelly licking!
Josua

Merry christmast everyone. This website has been ressurected before new year, cause it’s been abandoned in about 5 months. And for that I’m going to do major improvement, especially after new year. There will be more category added: review, experiment, social life.

As you can see now, there’s two or more post that isn’t using English. From this point forward, I think I’ll be strict to post only in international language. More fun stuff to come! So stay tuned!

It’s been a year (I may say) I don’t write a single bit in my so called “another side of me”. Actually I have all the idea I need to write. Just don’t have the intention to actually write! Sounds familiar? Yes, it’s the biggest challenge for everyone: really hard to start.

Now that’s being said, let’s move on to the point. I better called it word of the day.

Noun: consternation `kón-stur’ney-shun

1. Fear resulting from the awareness of danger
   - alarm, dismay

Derived forms: consternations

See also: alarming, unalarming

Type of: fear, fearfulness, fright

Today I’ve been living with this word. There’s no particular reason why I chose the word. Found it on gmail webclip and I just feel we are all have this consternation moment. For me as a parkour practitioner, this kind of situation happen more often than a person who live in comfort situation. On real life everyday situation let’s say when I want to do something out of my comfort zone, I may feel confident but on the other side I also worried about the consequences of this action. Suddenly I felt the worry, that’s what we called consternation my friend.

So when you’re in worry, remember this word and learn the situation that this only a form of fear of what happen next. Cause the biggest fear is fear of fear itself!

Ciao!

Josua “Grenseal”

I’m both happy and so sad, of course I’m happy cause in between my busy-ness I still have time to post but I’m sad cause I don’t have time to parkour My mind and body needs it’s cure. I don’t have solution for this one, so I spend my free time to post anything from my brain until it’s drained. Eventually draining my brain isn’t the solution to freshen my mind. But hey, I’m still alive. Every one or two situation keep me that way.

The spirit tobe alive that I get from my passion, even though I can’t do parkour sometimes looking at the video and thinking about it will freshen my mood. Talking to someone I like or even loved is another way Ugh, still need that parkour time anytime I want! Work.. work.. work.. is a responsibility I have to bring along. Looks like I have to started enjoy it. Why do I do it if I don’t love it, right?

This is for the girls that still need reason to be loved..

Girl: Do I ever cross ur mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose!! me or ur life!?
Boy: my life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says…

The reason you never cross my mind is because you’re always on my mind.
The reason why I don’t like you is because I love you.
The reason I don’t want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn’t cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn’t live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I’m not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.