It’s been a year (I may say) I don’t write a single bit in my so called “another side of me”. Actually I have all the idea I need to write. Just don’t have the intention to actually write! Sounds familiar? Yes, it’s the biggest challenge for everyone: really hard to start.

Now that’s being said, let’s move on to the point. I better called it word of the day.

Noun: consternation `kón-stur’ney-shun

1. Fear resulting from the awareness of danger
   - alarm, dismay

Derived forms: consternations

See also: alarming, unalarming

Type of: fear, fearfulness, fright

Today I’ve been living with this word. There’s no particular reason why I chose the word. Found it on gmail webclip and I just feel we are all have this consternation moment. For me as a parkour practitioner, this kind of situation happen more often than a person who live in comfort situation. On real life everyday situation let’s say when I want to do something out of my comfort zone, I may feel confident but on the other side I also worried about the consequences of this action. Suddenly I felt the worry, that’s what we called consternation my friend.

So when you’re in worry, remember this word and learn the situation that this only a form of fear of what happen next. Cause the biggest fear is fear of fear itself!

Ciao!

Josua “Grenseal”

Lost everything

It’s when I’m lost everything that I’m free to do anything. That’s right. See, when you loose everything you have you can freely do anything you want. But don’t loose everything you have… yet. Enjoy while it lasts. What we have is not permanent, we can loose some, but we’ll gain some more.

I know that I’m not that special snowflake. I’m just ordinary lazy suburban average guy (that’s what everybody says who they are). But I know I’m unique and so does you. I know what makes us unique, it’s not our appearance cause appearance is temporary. When you change your display image you’re then you’re not so special anymore.

There’s one huge thing that makes our self unique, that separate us from another average person, the one thing that gives us status, one thing that gives us power to be unique. (more…)